confidence.. NONE!

i seriously don't have the confidence for internship this time. i don't know. maybe because i had it all too easy way back then in poly. so what if i worked in ML before? it's all different now. no interview, interview failed, that's it. i will be thrown sent to some company, that will be provided by the school if all my applications to the big companies failed.

i have no confidence for interview. not any interview, but panel interview with tonnes of scary people. go through some psychometric tests and some other what-not tests. some even wants a CGPA of 4! mine i far from 4! WAILS! having to fight with the many tonnes of other interns who are far more zai than me.

all these are inevitable right? but i can't face it! i can't seem to face that that's the reality of it. i need some confidence. but i have the least bit of it. i don't know.

part of me wants to try and experience. part of me don't want to face it even. i don't know! i really don't know! this is madness, seriously.

all i need is just a bit of confidence. i wonder where i can pluck that courage and confidence from. i think i belittle myself too much. haizz. i don't know.

fyi, i've NEVER been to any interview before. the only interview i ever went was SMU. and yes, i screwed up. BAHH!!

i'm so stress. sheesh! but no use fretting right? just go and try right? it's so hard to convince myself. especially after reading all the requirements. they just scared me out of my wits. oh my. Allah, please give me some strength to go through all this. Amin.