counselling time~

yahoo!i've finished burning the whole 16 vcds of little bride,except for disc no. 13..i donnp y i cant burn,so asked syah to help me burn..

ystd,was funnnnnnn!hehe..went to PS to eat at fish&co..cari nye cari nye cari,they actually moved out already,beside parkmal..haha!..n so we walked over..it was syah's bday,so our very own dearest cik icha treated us to fish&co..

when we finished already,then only cik zarad arrived..apa dah!org sume dahbis br die dtg..haha!so,he ate the leftover from our share(me,kak rau & aziemah)..haha..then,it started to pour quite heavily,so decided to stay for a while n chit-chat..

n of course,we chit-chatted abt sthing useful,with cik zaradi as the counsellor..muahaha!he started asking ebody around if we are doin well in sch,if we hv probs with friends,families,sch work,etc..

after much talking,he asked if we have anything to ask..haha..hmm,juz to pen down my thoughts..(u can juz skip this part coz its very lengthy n nothng much coz it's all abt me & my doubts)

1.cik zaradi said that we should never stop learning,coz that's the path to success.i've gt to agree with that.if im not wrong,he said that if things dont work out our way,lets say,this job is not the right one for us,n that we gone the wrong path,we should switch line.then,if we always keep on changing jobs,when are we gg to be successful in one particular job?i mean,if like that,we dont hv a successful career..hmm..juz pondering though..(maybe i intrepeted wrongly what he said or i listened wrongly..)there's this malay peribahasa(idioms),but i kinda forgot what it was,that say that if we keep on changing jobs,we might not be successful in our career and would not be earning much,n will nt be rich.

2.we talked abt kak rau's plan after she graduate from poly next yr..insya-allah,she wanna take her degree,then cik zaradi said that kak rau can ask for sponsorship from top 100 companies and apply for it.dapat atau tak,takpe.juz apply..but then,if im not wrong,u have to work with the particular company who will be sponsoring u for like a few yrs,and if they see potential in u,they will sponsor for ur degree.then,when u graduate,u will have a secured job in the company and ur pay will be hefty amt..woo-hoo!haha!
my pt here is that i didnt know there are many alternatives to go to the uni..i mean,ive always have the traditional method of gg to uni..after poly/jc,muz do damn well,so that u can get into those very damn uni,get gd degree,then go n work at a gd company,with big pay.then,work very hard so that u can get pay rise or promotion..
i donno whats my future like,how it will be,what i wanna do..although i still hv 2 yrs down the rd in poly,but 2 yrs are gg to pass by very quickly.i gotta start planning.

n also,hopefully i've chosen the right path,and that this is what i really wanna do..

3.we also talked abt if we shld share our knowledge with others.this is exactly the prob that i hv in sch.i've always wanted to be the best,if not the next best ever since secondary yrs..when i came to poly,there are more competitors and ppl who are always far much better than me.
ok,this is the scenario.we are quite close in sch,do like almost all of the things together.after getting to know her,i can see that she is very hardworking and do her work seriously.during our very first test,our scores are like roughly the same,and for some of the papers,i scored more than her.but,when it comes to the semestral exam last semester,she scored MORE than me!and scored all ADs n As,with only 1 B!oh my!but me,only 1 pathetic AD,2 B+,the rest A.when i first see the results,i was very happy and bersyukur that i scored that well coz i didnt expect to do so well.when i learnt that she did soo well,i was like..a bit disheartened.coz all this while,i've been like doing ok,on abt the same pace as her,but only god knows if she did extra work,n i didnt.and u know what?ive been helping her if she had doubts.she even called me to clarify her doubts.n so,i helped lor..i cant be selfish.when i was helping her,i kinda have second thots,whether i shld help her or not,or juz ignore and say that i also donno myself..i cant bring myself to lie and tell her that..haizzz..i donno leh..its not that i don wanna help her coz she always ask me but she nvr give me..its juz that i don wan her to do better than me,coz i know we are on the same pace..
the main pt here is that,i was thinking if i shld help her if she ask me,and shld i bodek2 with her and get knowledge from her so that i can do well..i donno..thats bad if i do that..haizzz...selagi aku tak dpt beat die,selagi tu lar kan,i will keep thinking abt it..
i really donno..is getting very gd grades and always be the best important and gd?even if it hurt the other party,esp ur close friends?coz my friend told me before that gd grades earn no friend..meaning??hmm..
in this case,i donno if the other party,my competitor,is having the same feeling as i have..maybe yes,maybe no...i donno!!i think i need to know this,before i take action..how??haizzzz..i gotta work hard this semester..i've realised that we hv been helping each other quite a lot this semester..hmm..i donno..i seriously donno..sometimes i see her as a threat,sometimes not..i donno..or maybe i shld juz sit down n juz work hard,coz this actually may nt be happening,it's juz that i'm thinking too much into it..i donno..haizzzz...

oh ya..n i bought this bag from dorothy perkins..woo-hoo!!haha..actually saw it at PS..but PS left last piece,i don wan..so i tried my luck at suntec..n bingo!!i gt it!woo-hoo!haha..its a gd bargain..from 49 odd dollars to 23 bucks..hehe..i love it!today at IMM,there's URS and Elle sale..muz go n see..hopefully can get some nice decent shoes for my lovely feet..haha!!

k..till here..wish me luck for my test next week..chao!!!